I had this thought. Bipolar disorder, several other mood disorders, PTSD, and other anxiety disorders are all considered chronic and disabling. Bipolar, especially, is tied to repeated attempts and successions of suicide. It dawned on me that I have a friend who receives disability payments for another reason: he is a “person living with HIV.” He could develop full-blown AIDS at any time, and die. Suicide is a choice that is consciously made; getting HIV is not always a conscious choice. What if you need a blood transfusion somewhere other than the USA where they do not screen blood for the HIV virus? There are many ways to get HIV; there is no way of getting rid of it. For many people, they will live their lives comfortably for a long time without ever developing AIDS. Others are not so lucky; they develop AIDS early on and die.
I do not know why I was thinking about this; maybe I was flashing back to my own attempts, or those of people I know and love, and I realized how truly selfish suicide really is. When you have Bipolar, yes, you are at a higher risk of death by suicide. When you have HIV, you never know what, when, or if it will be a quick or slow decline.
Just something to think about the next time you think life sucks so badly; it can always be much worse.